Life

Lately I've been feeling like I have no friends. I had friends back in Utah but I feel like just because I'm in another state and married that I don't matter anymore. And I haven't really been able to make any friends here. All the people who I thought I would never loose as friends are slowly slipping away. One of my best friends even feels awkward talking to me just because I'm married. It's very frustrating and I'm unsure what to do. The only person I have is my husband, and don't get me wrong I love him to death. But everybody needs friends right? I've been living here since July and I still don't have any friends (I lived her for a month before I got married but then went back to Utah).

Then there is my church calling....I'm an activity days leader and I absolutely love my calling, but I feel that my partner doesn't. We are having a Halloween party for the girls. We were supposed to have it last week but she forgot. So I planned the entire thing: lesson, activity, treat etc. All she did to help was print off the papers I needed. I texted her like 3 times and asked if she could call half of the girls and remind them and if she could pick up some black sharpies from the dollar store. I bought lolipops, I'm giving the lesson, and gave the girls the invitations on Sunday. I'm honestly tempted to just tell her if she doesn't want this calling to just go talk to the bishop...but that would require her actually going to church. Her husband works graveyard at his job on Saturday nights and we have church at 9 AM. I understand its not easy to wake up at 9 AM after working all night, my mom works graveyard shift at Target but still manages to get up at 9 AM and go to church. I really just want a new partner who will contribute....I understand her situation and that she is going to school but that is no excuse.....I'm literally on the verge of a mental breakdown.